Things that I can't help feeling from time to time. - 時々思ってしまうこと。

When I was a child, I was told not to say anything nasty about other people. No matter how badly the other person treats you, you should still be polite to him/her and that would be the best way to show your dignity.
Do they really see it, my dignity?
No, I don’t think so. They’d probably just think I am a loser, or wimp.

子供の頃、よその人の悪口を言っちゃいけません、とよく言われた。
何をされても丁寧に接しなさい。それが、プライドを見せる一番の方法だと。
その人たちに本当に私のプライドが見えるんだろうか？
そうは思わないな。きっとワタシを負け犬だとか、弱虫だと思うだろうな。

There’s this thing in the bible that says ‘love thy enemy.’
This saying always puzzles me and leaves me wondering how an individual identifies another ‘enemy’, yet could love that individual.
That’s bullshit.

聖書には『敵を愛しなさい』という教えがある。
いつも変な言葉だと思う。どうすれば『敵』と思っている相手を愛する事が出来るんだろう？
そんなのインチキじゃん。

If I were to be polite to a person just for the sake of keeping peace with him/her on the surface and inwardly swearing and cursing that person, it’s as bad as being a backstabber, isn't it?
What if I were to be honest and talk through each other’s difference with the person, or if it wasn’t the possibility, why not should I at least straight things out?
Wouldn’t it minimize the misunderstanding?

もし、ワタシが見せ掛けだけの平穏を保つだけの為に相手に丁寧に接していて、心の中で相手を罵ったり呪ったりしてたら、陰口を叩くのと変わらないじゃん?
もしも、ワタシが本音でお互いの違いを語り合ったら。。。もしそれが不可能でも、問題だけでもはっきりさせられたら、誤解とか避けられるんじゃない？

I know that I’ve done it to many people and it might have upset some, but at least I never stabbed them behind their back.
If were to play nice to those people who despise me without single good reason, I would be a hypocrit.

それを、今まで沢山の人にしてきて、中には傷ついた人もいるだろうな。でも、ワタシは陰口だけは叩いた事が無い。
だってもし、ワタシが自分を適当な理由もなく嫌悪する相手にいい人面したら、ワタシはウソつきになっちゃうじゃん。

I would rather be called a bitch than being a real bitch.

本当のやな奴になるより、やな奴って言われた方がまだましだな。