I should've taken charge of the project in order to get the result I wanted. - The principle I had forgotten.
Sometimes I can be damn lazy and expect others to satisfy my needs by blaming my medical condition for not giving me enough energy and motivation.
Also, what worked in
(Didn't I know that already?)
'Clients are our gods (treasure)' mentality isn't as strong here and our ultimate satisfaction may not necessarily be their business.
I should've realized that I sometimes have to believe my own judgement.
I was uncertain, because I didn't grow up in this country and I don't know how things work here. So after long time of wavering I decided not to handle the business directly.
But hey, you'd often get this gut feeling that tells you when something is not right, wouldn't you? - I did.
The mistake I made was that I didn't trust that instinct.
Maybe I didn't want to take the responsibility in case something goes wrong and if it does I can pass the buck to someone else...so I have only myself to blame.
If I really want to survive in this country, I'd have to have guts to say things when I have to - I can't always be polite to people who try to scam or take advantage on disadvantaged people.
The challenge is - how to play the game. How to be assertive. Someone said to me,
'Well, practice love, practice - and you'll get better at it.'
2 years ago I missed the opportunity of getting a job by losing my cool after getting incessantly intimidated by a person at work (I had a casual position there).
I learned my lesson. You lose your cool, you lose your game.
I've been taking a baby step everyday since then and,
yeah, I think I'm at least better than I was back then.
Practice, practice makes perfect.