Going back to the way it started.

Sometimes I still get this familiar sense of discomfort when I write about my private life. Then again, I don't have to if I don't want to, and this blog doesn't have to be about self exposé.
It was my choice to make it something personal.

Initially I took an advantage on the fact that there weren't many readers (which is still true) and wrote my opinions and something more intimate at times.
In retrospect I could only do that because I wasn't translating it into Japanese.

These days, writing a new entry is no different to writing a diary. I've been updating it nearly everyday, but not with the same passion that I had when it started.
I don't exactly remember what my initial intention of setting up this blog was, but I feel that it's heading to something I don't like.

Recently it's getting increasingly hard to come up with something different, partly because I put myself under the pressure to write everyday, if possible. Meanwhile the blog itself is starting to stagnate.

Maybe this changing of the blog site stemmed from my subconscious urge to go back to how it was in the beginning, like writing on a blank page (only hypothetically) with no idea how to start and how it's going to pan out.

By the way my husband's name is Ian, sounds sweet to my ears.
Perhaps I should stop addressing him as 'my husband' as it feels sort of different from what he really is.

Also from now on, I'm going to write only when I feel like and what I really want to write.
It still might turn out something mundane, but let's see how it goes.

I hope it won't put off people who read my blog.
I hope I will see you here, on your blog or somewhere in this cyberspace.